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EPIK HIGH by mbollutchu EPIK HIGH :iconmbollutchu:mbollutchu 1 0
Illegal Happiness
You have officially made it illegal for me to be happy
Don't you know your policy it's choking me
But I have let you govern my heart eternally
Anyway I can only surrender my soul entirely
You've bought every bit of oxygen on the planet
Turns breathing for me into a lifetime debt
My lungs they will return to you as paycheck
But please give me my pounding veins back
Take some responsibility.
As my sanity starts to fall apart
My senses begin to rain hard
of sorrow and gloom
and remorse and mourns
that have all refused to ever stop
My life has shattered before my eyes
Pieces by pieces you stole my traces
and replace them with your pathetic lies
O despair dissemble me
Envelop me with shadows and hollows
and monochromatic misery that once glows
Drown me in the abandoned ocean
of poignant, POIGNANT teardrops
As I am hiding,
I hope you're happy that I'm sad with you.
~ January 18, 2013
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Living my karma
I'm living my karma
And I'm telling you things like you need them
Throwing you a bucket full of wisdom
in extreme shot of rage
In anger bursting out of cage
It's you I'm constantly blaming
as if you're misbehaving
I'm preaching to you like I know what I do
Acting like you're a lie and I'm the truth
Like I'm the saint
with purest blood down my vein
I'm yelling "you don't know me!"
Telling you to set me free
Let me be
You go shut the fuck up or I'll hang you on the tree
Can't you see I'm so angry
So angry…
…Before I myself get to see flashes
My past flickering under my eyelashes
Revealing time when I was selfless
Time when we laughed together
at things we thought a downer
I see flashes
of my shadow making fun of fate
Together with you I learnt to hate
Who knew I would pause and turn around
Stumbled upon someone else's fantasies,
I fell hard to the ground
Returning to the same days with different eyes
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It's been about a zillion years since I wrote my last journal on DeviantART.

I don't hang out much on here anymore lately, so please visit my artworks on my blog instead :aww:

I have promoted before that my blog is WeekendsIllustrated.Wordpress.Com.

Well guess what.


It's now officially WeekendsIllustrated.Com! :love:

So please visit, read, and comment! 



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Rara Ayu
I'm a writer who loves to draw xD

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HysteriC-Chaos Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Bixiff Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012
Yo! :wave: What other crazy picture ideas do you have next? :)
Bixiff Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2012
So, could you get back to my comment? :( So there's no way I could convince you to draw a request? :/

Hey, since you put up so many pics on your Weekends Illustrated blog, how about putting them up here, and linking to your blog? I like your art style a lot and how you draw yourself in cartoon form, and I think it would be great to show off your artwork to a bigger audience here.
Bixiff Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2012
Hey, do you take requests or point commissions?
mbollutchu Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2012
for now i don't.
but it could depend on how interesting the request is =P
Bixiff Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2012
Ah, darn. I don't know how interesting the request would be. I mean, do you like portraying yourself in dangerous or adventurous or embarrassing situations, like the Rainboy pic?
mbollutchu Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2012
Mmm I don't know. I mostly draw anything I feel or been through. Sometimes it involves something dangerous, adventurous, or embarrassing situations, but sometimes it doesn't. Maybe you could visit my illustration blog to see how much I portray myself in drawing =p (this is it --> [link])

Thanks for the watch and favs, by the way! :love:
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arespendil Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2010
mbollutchu Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2010
apa sih resss xD
Melusaaste Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2010
Thanks for the fav! :)
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